my first "real" mother's day. although last year at this time we were pretty close to penelope being born, so I already thought it counted.
But now, with almost a year of parenthood under my belt... I have to say, I had no idea what I was in for.
you think you know, you can convince yourself you are ready.
but there is nothing like it in the entire world.
(although as I'm writing this post, she is screaming her head off cuz I had the audacity to put her bed.)
it's hard to believe my little pain in the butt is almost a year old and i've been a mommy for almost a year. most of the time I still dont have a clue what i'm doing. but the one thing i do know - is there is nothing that child could ever do that would make me love her any less. in fact - everything she does, good or bad, seems to make me love her more.
some days you dont think that's possible... but it is. even though she is screaming right now. top of her lungs impressive screaming..i know that when the ten minutes i'm going to let her cry is up... i'll go in there, pick her up, and she will give me the sweetest smile in the world.. and my heart will break a little and somehow love her even more.
my mom gave me a mother's day card today and wrote a note on it that said, "everything looks so different once you are in on the secret of parenthood - a love you never thought your heart could hold."
she said it perfectly.
lots of things have changed in this past year, my priorities, my social life, my dress size, but most importantly i've changed. a little person like penelope doesn't come into your life and not change you for the better...
so even though i'll still look longingly at those size four dresses...i wouldnt change any of it.
and even though my hips are a different size - they are perfect cuz they fit penelope
and even though i dont have as much free time as I used to...all it takes is a smile and a hug from my baby to remind me that there is no place i'd rather be.
happy mothers day to all the moms out there - you are all amazing. the hardest and most rewarding job in the world is yours... and you make it look effortless
and happy mothers day to all the mothers to be - you have so much to look forward to. you have no idea what you are in for - but it's an amazing ride.
and most importantly...to my little girl... penelope you are amazing, my favorite thing in in the world is to just be your mommy.
i will love you forever, i will love you more every day, you can never do anything to change that, and i will do anything in this world to make you happy.
thanks for letting be your mommy. i will keep on trying to the best i can.
love you baby