a story for penelope

hey little lady... mom being on bed rest gives me plenty of time to fill you in on the past 8 months since you came into our lives. wanted to tell you about the day we found out we were pregnant with you. it was simultaneously the greatest and most terrifying day of your dad and i's life.
i remember we were going to go out that evening to our favorite dessert place, Harvest, for drinks and bread pudding to celebrate our six month wedding anniversary.
for some reason when i got home that day i had the urge to take a pregnancy test. i had taken a few the week before and they were both negative so i was pretty sure that there was no chance i was pregnant. maybe it was because we were going out for wine, or maybe it was the start of maternal instincts, but yep, it came back positive. and i'm pretty sure i just stared at that test for an hour. then for some reason i decided i needed to leave the house, wait an hour, then come back and take another. so gatsby and i went to the dog park and when i got back home - there it was again - another positive test. for some reason i didnt FEEL pregnant though - so i thought it was a false positive. i spent a ton of time on the internet searching false positives until i figured out that they pretty much don't exist. i couldnt wait for your dad to get home from work - so i called my friend michelle - and asked her if there were any such things at false positives.. then i think i did a lot of girlie laughing screaming crying and jumping around. decided i'd wrap up the tests and put them as a present for you dad for our anniversary ...looking back now the bag i used was pink - maybe that was the sign you were a girl! :) i also made frito casserole for dinner - classy huh? but it's a favorite of ours. when your dad finally got home i was going crazy! i had just been pacing all around the house. and then i pounced on him to open his presents.. i tried to act all nonchalant - turns out i'm terrible at that. he started to take the tissue paper out and then just stops and said "oh my god we are pregnant" and we both just stood there and stared at each other. two people who have never been at a loss for words could not figure out a single thing to say or do. we just sort of somehow made it through dinner, and just spent the rest of the night saying "oh my god" "i can't believe it" "oh my god." when we woke up the next morning we found we had left out all the dinner stuff.. the food was still on the stove, drinks still out of the fridge, i dont even think we remembered to feed poor gatsby... i guess that was the start of us losing our minds over you...